"Sometimes
just to say your own truth out loud is enough to find others like you."
It's a great moment in Matt Haig's great novel
The Midnight Library, when Nora, who is sliding between parallel lives,
discovers there are others like her. This is what Hugo, the first to reveal
himself, tells her.
"We are sliders. We have a root life in
which we lying somewhere, unconscious, suspended between life and death, and
then we arrive in a place...A library, a video store, an art gallery, a casino,
a restaurant..."
And this place becomes the portal to a
parallel world where you find yourself in the body and situation of your
parallel self as they are in this same moment. You'll be challenged to catch up
with their divergent biography, with a lover you never knew, a job you never held,
songs you never learned, muscles you didn't know you had.
The many worlds interpretation of reality, as
it has evolved, makes sliding acceptable to theoretical physics. The
architecture for transit - the library, the video store - is easier for human
minds than theorems about quantum waves.
Matt Haig's protagonist, Nora Seed, is exploring this territory while lying between life and death after overdosing. Her surroundings resemble an immense library, in the care of a lady who looks like her beloved librarian from elementary school. All the books in the midnight library are bound in green; to open any one is to enter a different parallel; life in which Nora made different choices.
We come to understand that the challenge for her is to find a life in which she wants to stay in a body in the physical world. She must white out volumes of her vast Book of Regrets. She can't take forever to do this. At a certain point the library of this limb will crumble and dematerialize.The librarian tells Nora, "Every time one decision is taken over
another, the outcomes differ. An irresistible variation occurs, which in turn
leads to further variations...You have as many lives as you have
possibilities. There are lives where you made different choices. And those
choices lead to different outcomes. If you had done just one thing differently,
you would have a different life story."
We are then informed that "Doing one thing differently is often the
same as doing everything differently. Actions can't be reversed within a
lifetime, however much we try...But you are no longer within a lifetime. You
have popped outside."
The books in the library are near or far according to how near or far the alternate life is from the current one (in time as well as space since greater divergence seems related to earlier separation).
Nora learns to think of the life in which her body is lying in a coma as her "root" life, with all the others spreading and diverging like branches of a gigantic tree. I think of Sylvia Plath picture of existence as a fig tree where you see the juicy fruit of other possible lives but can't get to them and must watch them rot. Here you can get to them but may leave them to rot.
So here is the friendly librarian's challenge: Which life would you
like to try on?"
Choose to stay in another life and it will be
as if it was always there. Your memory of the life you were living before - and
of the midnight library- will fade and disappear. The book of that life will not be
returned to shelves.
Nora starts by following her regret over not marrying a boyfriend named Dan and living his dream of running a country pub. The author teases us with his name for the Oxfordshire
village where the pub is located: Littleworth. Nora lands in her slightly different body without knowing
anything about the scene - she doesn't know where the loo is, or the name of
the whiskery regular. A question not answered is: what happens
to the Nora who was living at the Three Horseshoes pub while the
"original" Nora is in her body and life?
Things don't work out at the pub, or with the boyfriend, now a surly dipsomaniac husband. Try again, and again. Each time there's the small problem of trying to catch up with all the things your parallel; self was doing before you slid into her body. Nora flunks a speech she is supposed to give, as an Olympic star, to a thousand people, because she can't remember the story of this alternate self.
When you check out another life, through a book from the midnight library, you start at the same exact
time 00:00. In this other life you made other choices in the past. That
is past history of which you may remember little or much or nothing in the body
you are now in. You cannot touch that past. You can make choices in the present
and future of the alternate life that will become your definitive life, unless
disappointment throws you out of it.
Among the infinity of parallel lives you may choose from,
according to library rules, there is a category that
is forbidden: lives in which you are already dead. We are told there are no
books for such lives because the library is about possibilities and the dead
don't have any.
This seems to me to be a wrongful restriction. The dead have
choices, like the living, and plenty of possible futures. In exploring my own
parallel lives I have entered worlds where I died years ago. Some I find quite
enjoyable, even beautiful. For relaxation I sometimes go the penthouse of a
Robert who died before me. I enjoy swimming in his rooftop pool, and foraging
in his vast library, and watching dreams that play all around me, as if I have
slipped into a virtual reality pod, when I stretch out on his bed.
Nora's dialogues with the slider Hugo, who seems addicted to quantum jumping for its own sake, are marvelous and an effortless introduction to the Many Worlds hypothesis in physics which suggests that there are an infinite number of divergent
parallel universes. "Every moment of your life you enter a new universe.
With every decision you make."
Sliders might be popping in and out of parallel worlds all the time. People around them generally don’t notice even when they say, "My mind went blank" or "I am not myself today."
Hugo says, with admirable clarity, that "the human brain can't handle the complexity of an open quantum wave function so it organizes or translates this complexity into something it understands." Like librarian in a library. When Hugo goes sliding, his departure lounge is not a library, but a video store. Other sliders use different launch pads There is always a guide who resembles someone who was helpful in life.
You don't need to be half-dead to explore this field for yourself, though we all exist somewhere between life and death. I use a very special library, and a cosmic video store, and an art gallery or museum often as portals for lucid dream adventures in parallel worlds and others. I open such spaces to adventurous dream travelers as departure lounges for group journeys powered by shamanic drumming. and play guide for groups that want first-hand experience of these things.
I have made Matt Haig's novel recommended treading for the advanced dreamers who are engaged with me in exploring and mapping the multiverse. His sliders' varying choice of portals makes me reflect that, beyond a library and a video store, I could make more use of restaurants. I often dine well in my dreams and return with the taste in my mouth. I think I will see whether the Café Jet-Lag in Paris, where I would often stop for coffee or vin rouge after overnight flights, is a friendly transit lounge for interdimensional travel. The name matches my condition when I return from world-jumping.
I am told that since my last visit the Café Jet-Lag has closed. This is not a serious obstacle to making a return visit. If in my root life the café is no longer there, I am pretty sure I can find it in a parallel continuum, maybe even one in which the old farmer's market is still in business nearby at Les Halles.
Art: "Dream Library" by Robert Moss